A couple of weeks ago, I was putting together a photo book and while sifting through the many pictures on my computer, I was struck between the eyes with how utterly blessed we have been. Looking back over 2010, I was reminded that though we have had many challenges this year, we have also had many triumphs – some grand and some everyday. A few poignant events stood out amidst the holidays and birthdays, school and sports and general busyness of a family of eight, though, and I thought I’d share them this week.
First up, Nanny’s Gifts.
It’s been 7 months since I posted our news that we were expecting again for the 7th time in Nine will be fine. It has been a time of inner reflection for me. Our family has experienced many ups and downs. In some ways the time has dragged on and on and in others, it has flown by.
Had someone asked my at the beginning of 2010 if I thought I’d be welcoming 2011 with a new Edgling, I would have laughed. Yet here I am, four days overdue, having lived with the strangest sense of deja vu for the last nine months. After seven times, it just all seems very familiar and the pregnancies began to run together. I calculated that I have been pregnant for well over five years!
In my original post, I was struggling with adding another baby to the family. It felt like going backwards. Everyone in the house could dress and feed themselves. Gone was most of the baby paraphernalia, we were almost out of diapers altogether, leaving the house was easier. Then we drew the Go Back to Start card and rewound all of that. Back comes the stuff, the sleepless nights, the feeding, changing…
…and the snuggling and the cooing and the excitement over each milestone, the joy of watching older siblings interact with a little one. Just like in a board game when you go back to start, you may feel like you’re starting over, but you’re also getting a chance to hit all the good spaces again. That’s what God’s been reminding me. That this appointment was divine – it has been all the time. It just took me a minute, or two, to see it.
So now I find myself impatiently glancing at the baby bed in the corner, wishing there was a warm little bundle already there, ready to see what this time around the board has in store.
A photo of us on my wedding day, beside one of her many teacups.
January has not been kind in the area of loss. 3 out of the last 4 years have found us welcoming the New Year while saying good bye to a loved one. A year ago today, I received an unexpected call from my mom that my Nanny has passed away in her sleep of an apparent heart attack. It was just a few days after her birthday. Ice storms had prevented the family from getting together with her that weekend. I had mailed a card, but I am sad to say, I hadn’t called her yet, for reasons that escape me now.
Over at Habits for a Happy Home, I shared that I was going to start a Read the Bible in 90 Days challenge starting Jan 3rd. Amy at Mom’s Toolbox is hosting it.
I was really excited to get started since I’ve tried reading the Bible through in a year, but never finished.
So, tomorrow is already day 10 and I am a little bit behind. I was cruising along, until I hit a patch of feverish nesting that left me too tired to finish my reading for a couple of days. Hopefully by tomorrow night, I’ll be caught up. I picked a terrible spot to get behind since I am in Exodus and Leviticus where God is laying out the laws and the construction of the temple in great detail.
It’s definitely shown me how easy it is to get behind, even because of things that seem worthwhile and important at the time. Also, that the best time for me is definitely in the morning before the whole house stirs! I might be able to squeeze a couple of chapters in at night, but only if I’m not exhausted!
I am still as committed as ever. I am amazed at how quickly I am moving through the books already and what a great overall picture I am getting. Hopefully at next check in, I can report that I have delivered on my promise to catch up and on my sweet baby girl who is now 4 days late :)
If you’re participating, chime in and share your experience so far.
For the past six weeks or so, I have had to put one of nature’s strongest instincts on hold for the holidays. My mind was furiously making lists of things needed to do to make things just right to welcome a new baby, but I simply had to wait until I made it through everything that goes with having lots of kids at Christmas. There were plays and baking, shopping, wrapping, company and parties and as I look back, I’m not sure how I made it ;) It was a grand time though! Continue reading
This recipe is from the Pampered Chef “Kids in the Kitchen” cookbook. We double it. Continue reading
These days I am feeling a bit like a soldier who has to be ready to go at a moments notice. I feel like I am trying to keep so many plates spinning, so that when it is time to go to the hospital none of them will come crashing down. My home will be clean, there will be meals in the fridge, I will be clean, I will have clean clothes to wear home from the hospital, my kids will have clean clothes to visit the hospital – it feels unending…and tiring. You’d think after six times, I’d have it down, but there are so many variables.
At my last appointment, my midwife was already asking if we had scheduled an induction. I’m wasn’t due for four more days. I said no and that I wasn’t in favor of doing so. I am and always have been a huge proponent of letting things happen naturally. As hard as it is to wait and as tempting as it is to have an illusion of control, I love that this is something only God knows. He already knows exactly when baby girl will make her appearance. He knows where I will be, what I’ll be doing, who will be with me, just as He did the last six times. And at the end of the journey, when we bring her home, I will see again that He is in control and my faith will be increased.
I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I put my hope” Psalm 130:5